Oh Stella, you are definitely meant to be in this family!!!

Yesterday while visiting family, our little Stella was out playing with the kids when she slid on some snow, fell over and then proceeded to not be able to walk!  I was able to touch/rub/check all of her, and it appeared nothing was  wrong, but it was as if her right front leg was out of its socket or something but there was no crying, nothing, unless she tried to walk.  Steve and I took her to the vet ER  (yes, they have them!!) close to my sister in laws house, where I had visions of humongous vet bills, doggy surgery, broken legs, etc. and after an hour wait (nap for Stella!) I brought Stella out to pee, placed her in the grass fully prepared to hold her up if need be- and she was able to both stand up, and walk with a slight limp.   We waited to see the dr and just be sure all was ok.  The dr says it was quite possible that her shoulder could have came partially out of her socket, and we could've  popped it back in when we checked her out ourselves.  

Steve and I laughed after, we were like two parents of a brand new baby.  I almost felt foolish for bringing her in, but with three devastated kids left back at my sister in laws, there was no way we weren't getting her checked!  Thankfully, all is ok, and Stella is supposed to " take it easy" the next couple of days! 

Here is a pic of Stella, lazily napping in the puppy ER!  

Proven yesterday, Stella belongs in this family, with a visit to the ER in her first 10 weeks of life! ;)

Winter blues....

...they can't get me down!   At least, I will try to not let them!  On a day where I have every hour scheduled, I wanted to take just a moment to check in.  I have been frantically running around the last few days, trying to get things set, so I can head off for a long weekend away in Florida, a chance to root on our boys, The Patriots, as they squish the fish on Sunday! I can't wait for some fun in the sun, and some warm air on my sore achy joints!   I am actually here to complain a little...what other mom friends will sympathize with, my husband does not !  What he is not realizing is that in order for us to get away this weekend, I need to have so many other things lined up!  Setting up a babysitter, making sure there is food in the house, lining up rides, and school, and drop offs, and pick ups, doing laundry, not just for the kids, but for us to pack, (you think He is capable of doing that himself???), and lets add on the fact that Christmas is in about 12 days or so, and I have to shop, wrap, hide, and also the Christmas Party we are hosting the weekend prior...no problem to cook, clean, organize and be calm so you can entertain 75 people in your home...no problem at all for a person who has no strength in her hands, has days of pain and weakness, and who has bouts of nausea and all the other "fun" stuff that goes along with a completely invisible, debilitating disease!  Don't get me wrong, I am looking forward to every last minute of it all, and I work best under pressure, if I do say so myself! But just for once, I would love it if my husband showed me the empathy that I get from others...I'm not in no way badmouthing him, I am just wishing he would "get it"!

Next Week is crazy as hell as well!  I am scheduled for a bone density, nurse appt to "learn" how to give myself my newest injection, as well as an appt with my Rheumy. - all in the same day.  Why I thought it was a good idea to schedule it the week before the kids get out on winter break, the week I have to pick up my son from college to come home for the holidays, the week that my kids have holiday shows, xmas parties, and all that fun stuff...I have no idea why I thought that was a good idea, BUT - I am looking forward to the next step, starting a biologic, along with my MTX (chemo shot) - and praying to find some relief and kick some RA ass! 

SO, if I do not get back online, to blog, post on FB, or any of that other stuff, I just wanted to wish everyone a very Merry Christmas with their loved ones! 

Be well,
xo MB

It's been a minute..

...or two since I last checked in!  Happy to say, I am alive and doing what I would think is pretty well.  I took a bit of a hiatus from bitching and complaining, because honestly, I was sick of hearing myself! It's been a rough year for me and my family, things have happened that sometimes I find myself sitting and thinking, "Is this really my life?  How did I get here?"  It just seems that it has been one bad thing after another, and if you've ever been faced with a similar situation, you know as well as I do, people really don't want to hear about it, so that is usually when I take a step back!  

So - Here I am after two nights or barely any sleep, on the cusp of thinking that MTX is finally working for me,  when I realize I am definitely keeping my appointment with my Rheumy-NP this week.  I am ready to try something new.  I am really ready to dive in, and move past this time in my life.  I hit a bit of a bump about a month ago, and had some other health issues come up. I have been back and forth to appointments between different doctors, blood labs, etc.  I am really ready to feel good again!

The Holiday season us upon us, and we all tend to get lost in the hustle and bustle of busyness of it all, this year I am going to be sure to take the time to be grateful for all that I have, and forget about all the other stuff that brings me down - if you have similar struggles, I hope you get a chance to do the same.

Happy Veteran's Day to all, and though I think it's not enough; I say thank you to those who have, who will someday, and who are out there right now - fighting for our freedom, a million times, thank you!


Until next time, be well!
mb

Mid flair..

Mid flair fever!  So along with pain, and all the other crap- the feeling like I am burning up! Good times! 

Race for a Cure - Done!

Love my girls!

Me and my sisters! <3 p="">

 

 

Our "team" raised over $3,700 with donations still coming in..all walking for the same reason - to support mom! 

Mom in the middle, surrounded by all of us in this fight with her!

 

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I can't say enough, how proud of my kids I am.  To be dedicated to a cause, and helping others! 

With Grammie - my kids would do anything for her!

 

They are in this together - walking, running, whatever...together!

When my girls saw the roses at the finish line, they had to get some for Grammie!

 

 

 

I know I have thanked everyone, but I can't say it enough!  The support we received from our friends has been astounding!  We have all discussed, and agreed that it's an eye opener. Those you expect the support from, don't always pull through, and then those you least expect it from, pay it forward without a second thought.  We are so blessed to have such good people in our lives!

 

Next year , we run!  This weekend's Race for a Cure was the start of a tradition.

 

Everyday there seems to be new news of someone I know who has been diagnosed.  Cancer, in any form, does not discriminate.  I stand with my best girlfriends every morning, and we look around and wonder if one of us will be next.  I will continue to do what I can, to help raise funds and awareness, until there is a day when I don't need to worry for myself, my mother, my sisters, my daughters, and my friends.  Someday there will be a cure!

 

 

Damn you RA!!!

I ended up with a blister on my toe last Monday when I wore closed- toe "cute" shoes on a cool day.  It has been so sore and has bled every day since!  I heal a LOT slower than most people who are not on the chemo drug and steroid!  I wore sneakers today and took them off to a blood filled sneaker and sock!  Afraid I may be infected and I am going to have to call my dr and see if I have to stop my med and allow it to heal!  My walk is Sunday, and I will be damned if this stops me from walking!!!!😩

Hello Autumn!

Autumn has always been my very favorite season, but this year I seem to be embracing it's return more than ever!  Cooler days, no humidity, and not yet freezing my ass off  - ideal weather for my body now.  I feel excited to check the weather and see it's supposed to be a crisp 65 - I only wish it could be like this every day!  :) 

The past week I have been feeling much better than how I was feeling in my last few posts.  I find myself planning more and more activities that I usually have to second guess.  This Sunday is our Race for  Cure, and with Sunday's and Mondays being my toughest days, I can only keep wishing that I will be in prime shape come the 29th.  I want to again thank everyone for their continued support.  I still feel so humbled by the amount of people who have made donations to us.  I have said it over and over, and will continue to say it - as much as Cancer Sucks, it has a way of bringing people together. 

If anyone can make any last minute donations, here are the links to both my personal fundraising page, and the kids page too!

http://www.komenmassrace.org/faf/donorReg/donorPledge.asp?ievent=1079598&lis=1&kntae1079598=651EC50F09EB4DBEA3D290BD2689B0B8&supId=389825087&team=0&nmv=true

http://www.komenmassrace.org/faf/donorReg/donorPledge.asp?ievent=1079598&lis=1&kntae1079598=BDDFA8713AA341C894369DB1CE918092&supId=390483145



From time to time, you will be surprised to see that I have nothing else to say.  I have no real  complaints today, and for that I am thankful!  :)

Be well,
MB