Saturday..

My Saturday's are usually filled with the craziness of having 4 kids, a home, yard, etc. It almost always involves running from one field to another, to mowing ht elawn, working in the garden, cleaning the pool..laundry, cleaning..all that fun stuff!  As of late, it is also my MTX day.   While I was just whipping up a gourmet (yes, I cook gourmet! (: ), omelet for myself and Steve to share, I suddenly realized that it was an MTX day.  My heart got a little heavy, because I know that the next two days are so are going to be awful!  As awful as I think they are going to be, I know it could be worse.  I am not going to talk too much in detail of the struggles my family has been faced with very recently, but I will share this; About a week ago we were all shocked with a breast cancer diagnosis that my mother received.  It has taken some time for us all to process this.  I will not share in detail all that is going on, as my mother is a very private woman, but I will say that we, as a family, (me, my family, my sisters and brother, and their familites) are in this together. We are all moving forward, and preparing to fight the fight of a lifetime, with my mother, for my mother and we know this cancer does not stand a chance!

SO, MTX day or not. I am going to tackle the things that I need to get done, and I am going to smile about it.  I am going to have a BBQ with some family, and I'm going to laugh and cherish the time.  Tomorrow may be a bad day, and the coming weeks there may be some struggles, but all we have is today, so live it up, love those around you, and as always, be well!

-MB
xoxo

And so it begins....

Thank you MTX! 😖

MTX 1, MB 0

Second dose of MTX last night... Literally kicked my ass.  Been in bed all day!  It has to get better... No, it will! 

Be well, 

MB

3 days post first MTX treatment...

Thank you to those who have checked in on me to see how I am feeling, I really do appreciate your sincere concern and care! :)   As of today, I can say - I feel no better!  I have had some waves of nausea, and it seems that by early evening, I am having more difficulty walking, and the use of my hands is painful.  I know it's early, and we will have to wait it out some time - but anxiously awaiting to feel some relief! 

I have spent a good deal of time on the web, looking for any information that I can print out for Steve, and the kids to read, to understand better what is going on with me. More so, I need them to realize that I am in no way exaggerating my pain, tiredness, etc.  I know it must be extremely hard for them to all understand that I am feeling this way, when most days I just push through and get the things done that need to be done, but the last couple days, I have given in, and rested as needed. I really can't go on sometimes.  So taking care of me is the priority! 

On another note, I have an appointment for my 6 month follow up regarding the tumor in my breast.   I will have an ultra sound and see the surgeon, to find out if there has been any growth, and we will figure out what the next step is!  Never a dull moment!

Will check in tomorrow, when I know more!
Until then, be well!
mb
xo

Chemo night!

I have to be honest, didn't think I be nervous about taking some meds!  My hand was shaking as I tossed these into my mouth and washed them down with a glass of water!  I decided to start my MTX a night early, in case I got sick, I didn't want to be home alone with the kids the first time, so at least I will have Steve with me tomorrow!  Anyhow, wish me luck- feels good and liberating to take charge if my health!  

Doctor update....

My new doctor was wonderful!  She spent 1 hour and 10 minutes in the exam room with me.  She answered every single question, did a thorough examination, and talked long winded about the many options I have.  She gave me HOPE!  Hope that I will not be living in pain for the rest of my life.  It's a long road, but I am going to get there! 

Chemotherapy - .....not just for Cancer Treatments!  Seriously!  I always thought it was strictly a cancer drug, but have learned otherwise as of late, and I start on Sunday!  Yes, you read it correct, I will start a new medication, called Methotrexate , which is one of the most effective drugs used today, to treat inflammatory arthritis! Click the link, it gives great information about the drug, how it works, how it is dosed, etc.  I am a little anxious about starting it, as it does come with all the side effects, but hopefully they are short lived..(usually the day after you take your dose)...and hopefully I start feeling like me again sooner, than later!

Thank you everyone, for well wishes, and support!

Until next time, be well!
mb 

Heading out to see my new dr.....

Armed with a med list and list of "symptoms"....hoping for some answers and relief!!!